Digging In…And Letting Go

Friends, I’ve hit a road bump. I’m not sure yet just how much it’s going to impact me, but it’s probably going to be pretty large. It might even mean that I have to sideline my plans to go to Santiago de Compostela this year. I’d rather not speculate and stress until all the facts are in, though.

Last weekend, my boyfriend and I called it quits after almost 8 years. It wasn’t unexpected; my crumbling relationship was one of the major problems in my life. The Camino was always something of an escape route, anyway. It was the place that I retreated when I couldn’t handle another second of my life. I still desperately want to go on pilgrimage, but now it will be less about running away from my future, and more about embracing it.

Unfortunately, a side effect of leaving a long-term relationship is divvying up your belongings and finding a new apartment. Apartment prices are pretty inflated in New Orleans. They say that about other cities, but here most people I know make under $35k a year, but pay around $1k in rent each month (if they live alone – it’s cheaper with a roommate, but that’s such a pain).  That means that the typical apartment takes up an unrealistic portion of a person’s paycheck, and that’s before utilities get tallied in. I’m currently hunting for something in my price range (a much lower budget than $1k, that’s for sure), and it’s hard. If I can’t find something at or under what I currently pay, there’s a good chance I won’t be able to save anything over the coming months to go on my trip.

Somehow, though, even though I’m writing all of this, I’m not that worried. I feel strangely certain that everything’s going to be just fine. I’m not giving up yet. Things have a way of working themselves out, and something tells me that this will, too.

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11 thoughts on “Digging In…And Letting Go

  1. ~meredith says:

    Maybe this is the first, real step on the road. The Camino reaches to those who reach with awareness of limitations. Keep writing. Keep on! No pilgrimage begins the way we imagine, and it’s a messy business working things through… but that’s the beauty of the journey, too.

    It’s perfectly right to get good and messy, then learn how to roll with mess.
    All roads merge, eventually.
    Meredith

    • Anna says:

      Thanks, Meredith. Beautiful thoughts, beautifully written 🙂 I’m definitely going to keep writing; I’m reading way too much about the journey to keep all those thoughts to myself. I yearn to roll with the mess – I’m learning to let go a little each day…and I like it 🙂

  2. dpincorbreuse says:

    Remain calm, remain positive. Things have a way of ‘working out’ when we manage to ‘let go,’ as you say in your title. I am a praying person and I’ll send some your way.

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