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Soggy Tuesday

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I’m having a really tough day. My period’s about to start, and I haven’t slept a lot in the last 48 hours, so it really shouldn’t be any mystery why I can’t stop crying. I know that sounds a tad dramatic, and it certainly feels that way, too. It’s just that my body isn’t cooperating with the last shreds of logic that tell me there’s nothing serious to be crying about. Well, you know, except for that one thing.

The only thing that’s on my mind is something I don’t have the right to cry about, because I saw it coming from a mile away. Literally, I’ve had years to prepare. But it doesn’t matter. I’m still sad. Even though it offers a chance to reinvent myself – literally my favorite part of living – I am not as pleased as I should be.

I don’t really want to talk about this yet, in part because it hasn’t happened, exactly. It’s in the beginning stages of getting ready to happen. I don’t know yet whether I want to rip off the bandaid or hang on for dear life. I think, given the depth of attachment, I’d prefer to hang on. I’ll let you know what happens. I thought that maybe in this post I’d talk about all of the ways in which I haven’t failed at life, but right now I’m having a tough time digging down to my inner Amazon. Maybe tomorrow.

4 responses to “Soggy Tuesday”

  1. momsthetruth Avatar
    momsthetruth

    Oh dear. I think I have an idea what you’re talking about.

    Heavyhearted when having to be in the same process that you are in and what you will have to go through eventually. Well, someone asked me to giveaway something to help someone else in need. You have to giveaway to make room for good things to come in. Literally, that’s what it is.

    In your name today, I will give away some for a cancer patient. My hope that it will relief your heart, be sprinkled in fairy pixie dust just because you are a beautiful, strong, independent woman who knows her worth.

    *Hugs*

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    1. Anna Avatar
      Anna

      Awww, that’s very kind. Thank you. Hope that things are looking brighter for you today, too. ❤

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  2. momsthetruth Avatar
    momsthetruth

    Even if it isn’t, it will. (Wow to such positive vibes [I am amazing myself with this statement LOL])

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    1. Anna Avatar
      Anna

      LOL, I know exactly what you mean. I can believe that everything is the absolute worst for me and will never get better, then turn around and truly believe in sunshine and rainbows for a friend. So silly, our brains. I’m just aiming for nice, cloudy days all round.

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I’m Nova

I have no “personal brand.” I’m not a girl boss, I’m not an influencer, and I don’t aspire to be powerful, inspiring, or rich. I probably can’t teach you anything, and there’s a good chance that there’s nothing at all of interest or use to you here. This is just where I come to talk about the random bits and pieces that make up my quiet life as a sober woman in her 40s. I’m engaged to the love of my life, have six (yes, SIX) indoor pets, and spend a lot of time gardening and hunting for thrift treasures. I also study classical voice (I’m a lyric coloratura soprano) and am deeply interested in all things spiritual and paranormal. Right now I’m trying to recover from career burnout and even out my personal energy, but my eventual goal is to become a medium and shamanic healer, using music to remind humans of the things that actually matter: connection, community, and loving all living things as though they were our own children. I may or may not talk about all of these things here (and sometimes all at once). Welcome!

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