The Flame

Is an untold truth really a lie? Right now I’m holding two very big truths pretty close to my chest. So close that you will not be finding out about them, dear readers. They’re potential life-changers. They’re exciting. They’re terrifying. And they both fit together pretty nicely.

It’s inconvenient to have these things that I can’t share, especially here on my blog, where so many of my most intimate thoughts and memories have been displayed. If you don’t know me, you might think that I’ve been rather indiscriminate with the things I’ve told you about myself. But really, I live this blog like I live my life – in segments, in shadows. I’m a Scorpio; that’s just how we roll. There will always be bits of myself that no one gets to see. You’d be amazed at how often in life I’ve discovered that I’ve been keeping secrets even from myself.

But if you were a sleuth, you could figure things out. I keep some thoughts on my Pinterest page that might hint at my intentions. And I’ve told two friends, or three if you count The Man, though he doesn’t know the whole story so he can’t really be tallied, either. If you’ve been reading carefully, you’ll know who I’ve told. I suppose you could offer a reward for releasing sensitive information. That’s why they don’t know that what I’ve told them is to remain secret, silent, safe. No one feels like telling a secret if they think it’s already common knowledge.

So why am I hiding this portion of my life? Because the time is not right to tell anyone. There are still steps to be taken, and in the meantime I want to remain safe. In the end, I’ll hurt feelings. I’ll most likely even burn bridges, which is something I try never to do. But sometimes that’s just how these things go. If all works out as it should, I’ll be opening up new opportunities for myself, and making some drastic steps in the right direction.

I can’t wait to share this with you, but for now my lips are sealed, my fingers are crossed, and all of my energy is going to keeping these secrets safe just a while longer. Wish me luck!

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