Day #29: Feeling Like a Failure


I’m not in a good headspace right now. I missed yoga on Wednesday, and straight up skipped class yesterday, then didn’t wake up in time for class this morning. I cannot miss this afternoon’s class for anything! And now I’m going to have to do two classes a day on Saturday AND Sunday to make up for my laziness and get back in line with where I should be on the 30 Day Challenge. To top it off, on Wednesday I ate far over my calorie limit, then topped that off with a bunch of beer. Yesterday, I was too scared to weigh myself, then I got taken out to lunch by my coworkers, and met up with girlfriends for a pre-planned burrito dinner, again blowing my calories out of the water. I’m going to do my best not to screw up today, but The Man woke me up this morning to tell me he was bringing home a pizza so we could hang out together and watch movies tonight. I know that things like this shouldn’t freak me out, but I’m already pissed at myself for eating a piece of pizza at 8:30pm tonight.

My only option is to take it easy on lunch, go to yoga this evening, only eat one piece of pizza, then go to yoga twice tomorrow and be really good to my body all weekend. It’s not hard, exactly. It’s just annoying to have to spend so much of my energy thinking about what I’m going to eat in the future, and being sad that I won’t like any of it because it’s not ice cream, pizza or fried chicken. Argh. I’ve got to get ready for work.

Again, I didn’t weigh myself this morning. I’m feeling bloated and horrible, so I’m sure I’m probably back around 162, and I just can’t look at the scale to see that this morning. I also ate a really shitty breakfast of eggs, toast and cheese. I think I’m going to stick to carrots and a granola bar for lunch. Meh. This post sucks. Sorry.

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