Oh, Henri! How Right You Are…

One of my favorite celebricats is Henri, the morose French philosopher cat who stars on his own YouTube channel. Of his short films, his Halloween appearance, “L’Haunting” is my favorite. There’s this wonderful line about how people never dress up as anything truly frightening – like crippling self doubt. Of course he’s right, but it’s also very funny. Here, take a look:

Today’s Daily Post prompt asks us what we’re truly frightened of, and for me at this very moment, the self doubt has it. It’s not that I’m scared of self doubt, it’s that self doubt creates and strengthens fear, but it’s all part of the same equation. In the end, I’m frozen in place, chewing on the possibilities – or the possibilities chewing on me, I haven’t decided yet.

From an outsider’s perspective, the situation probably seems easy – drop the baggage and move on. But it’s always been hard for me to see if my actions are truly helping me move forward, or are just causing pain to others that will eventually rebound into my own life. Loyalty is extremely important to me, and when I see that people are trying their best to support my goals, even if that effort doesn’t initially seem good enough for me, I still feel compelled to see it through. I’ve delivered my complaints and reasoning, and have been met with 100% improvement on The Man’s part. He’s listening to me, saying the things I need to hear, watching his tone of voice, pouring my wine, kissing my wounds, and overall being a very close version of what I wanted him to be years ago. It’s up to me to decide if the change is enough, soon enough, and still valid. At first inspection, I’m not responding well to the change. It’s not pushing the buttons that it would have a few years ago. But giving up is not something to be done lightly, especially after having been together for so many years.

It’s also my duty to try to wrap my head around what part of my unhappiness is due to internal conflicts that have nothing to do with The Man, what part of it has to do with selfishness, what part of it has to do with misguided loyalty to others, and most of all, how my vocation and geographic location impact my sense of urgency. It’s a lot to take in, chew up, spit out, and take one last look at after that.

So is this crippling self doubt? Undoubtably. But is being hobbled always a bad thing, if it helps one to be fair? I don’t know the answer to that. Not yet, anyway.

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