Hi again, lovely readers! Maybe you didn’t miss me at all, but I sure as hell missed you. I’m back now, though, and ready to pick up where I left off. First though, a little bit of an update:
1) You’re looking at a newly-minted graduate! I’m still waiting on my diploma to arrive via USPS, but I’m the official holder of a Master of Science degree in Internet Marketing from Full Sail University. It was a really tough year in so many ways, affecting my social, personal and work lives in ways that I never expected, but I made it. Of all of my degrees, this one means the most – and who knows, maybe one day it will help me make enough money to pay off the mountain of student loan debt I’ve incurred over the last 13 years! (I’m not holding my breath on that one, though.)
2) When I started this blog, my two major goals were to get a job in writing/marketing and to lose weight. I’m so happy to report that I’m a freelancer now, with steady employment! I’m not working full time yet, and I’m not making a ton of money, but I’m finally doing something I love. Better than that, I work out of an office with other freelancers, and generally have an awesome day EVERY DAY. Imagine that – enjoying my work day. Isn’t that just the craziest concept?
3) My weird workplace is a marketing & creative agency that ‘lives’ inside of an art gallery. We host art shows! I love art shows!
4) We also have three office dogs – Hobbes, a border collie, and Otis and Nola, both pugs. I’m more of a cat person, but I don’t discriminate. Nola likes to sit in my lap, and Hobbes often drapes himself over my feet. Otis only hangs out if he sees a chance of food in the near future.
That was most of the “great” stuff; now let’s touch on some of the not so greats…
5) My work schedule is hectic and ever-changing. I’m not the best at adjusting my personal schedule to succeed in the face of work schedule changes, and a few facets of my life have suffered as a result, mostly my diet and exercise schedule, as well as my personal life with The Man.
6) I’m eating at weird times, and following my cravings too much. As a result I’m back at 162 lbs, and it’s driving me crazy. My body is just not at all what I want it to be. Someone took a photo of me at a large art event over the weekend, and even though the camera adds some weight, I was really shocked to catch an outsider’s glimpse of how I present myself. It’s not cool. I’m 20 lbs overweight, and it’s not just some whack theory I’m obsessing about needlessly – it’s evident in my arms, my hips, my shoulders, even my ankles. I’m too young to be ashamed of my physical appearance, and it needs to be rectified.
7) I’m at work (but not necessarily working, which I know is a difficult concept) from 9:30am until often around 8pm or so, and I work on Saturdays and Sundays, too. This only leaves one Bikram class time open on the week days – 6am – and I am SO not a morning person. I’ve made it to one 6am class so far, and my intention is to go five to seven times a week, but waking up in the morning is a serious problem for me. I’m also supposed to be running at night, with a goal of working my way back up to half-marathon distance capability. I’ve done a few 2 mile runs, and since they can be done anytime, anywhere, that’s a much easier goal for me to keep. I’ve been thinking about working in something like P90x or another workout program that I can do at home, but I just don’t have the money right now.
8) I want to cut meat out of my diet forever. There’s no excuse that I haven’t done this yet, other than that I follow my cravings and am an emotional/stress eater with a nasty habit of binging when life gets too much. My diet is mostly vegetarian anyway, with meat just popping in every now and then, but I’d like to eventually move my diet from 80% vegetarian – 20% omnivore to 60% vegan – 40% vegetarian. I’m trying to wrap my head around how to do this on my budget and while avoiding the incredible emotional stress this is going to create in bringing bagged lunches to work and also trying to share cooking responsibilities with The Man. Also, I’m constantly making “commitments” to my diet and then falling out of them, so The Man has little faith in me when I tell him I’m going to avoid meat, dairy, carbs, whatnot. It doesn’t change the fact that my heart is still in cutting out meat and dairy, but it does make it tougher on me to have faith in myself when my supposed #1 supporter thinks I’m just going to give up and go back to eating ribs in the end. It’s a crap cycle.
9) It’s time to start writing for fun again. Not just on Compass & Quill, but on other projects. I still really want to write the books that are floating around in my head. Where do I make this time happen during my oh-so-insane day?
I’ve made a schedule in Excel that outlines how to make the most out of my time, fitting in yoga, running, writing, work, even some down time with The Man, but paperwork is not enough. I need to somehow get other people involved with my goals, to have some accountability. So how do you folks feel about becoming part of my support group? I could really use the eyes (and comments).