Compass & Quill

Today’s Weight: 157.8 lbs. (groovy)

It’s Thursday, and I’m so ready for the week to be over.  There’s a lot going on in my life right now – grad school, getting ready to quit my job and move across the country, frantically looking for a new home and a new job, coming up on my 30th birthday, trying to lose 20 lbs, going to Bikram every day, dealing with all of my friends getting married, dealing with my own 5 year dating relationship, trying (mostly in vain, it seems) to pay off my credit cards, worrying about how my youngest cat is going to deal with the move (not well, I’m thinking), and I could go on and on.

But this is not a post about what’s not right in my life.  In fact, none of the things I’ve mentioned are what’s wrong in life, just what life is.  To quote John Lennon, “Life is what happens when we’re busy making other plans.”  I’m just trying every day to keep in mind that these worries and insignificant events are the things that mean I’m alive, and enjoy it all from that angle.

Even though I took my vitamins this morning, I’m still feeling vaguely run down today.  From prior experience, I’m aware that this is how I feel when I’d rather be anywhere other than this desk.  However, just in case it also has something to do with my body’s reaction to lower calorie intake and more calorie expenditure, I went ahead and ate a big, delicious, fatty lunch.  I figure I’m 157 today, so I can afford to go back up on the scale a bit if it means I’m also having a happier day and feeling physically stronger.  I ate a BLT & french fries, which means that I’ll have to eat soup and a salad for dinner.

I haven’t been sleeping that well for the last few weeks, in general.  Last night was no exception.  I’m such a light sleeper, and keeping a fan on, or having people talking outside, or hearing cicadas chirping, any little noises keep me slightly awake.  It’s a little frustrating, since I normally end up trying SO HARD to keep myself awake during savasana in class…why can’t I pass out that peacefully at home, in my own bed?  Tonight after class, I’m going to do the little bit of homework I have left for the week, then no more computer for at least an hour before bed, and lights out at 10pm.  If that doesn’t get me at least 7 hours of good shuteye, I don’t know what I’m going to do.

Thank goodness it’s almost the weekend.  Did I mention that some friends and I are going to the Wisconsin State Fair on Saturday?  So exciting – all that food on a stick!